#282: Searching for You

Dear friend,

I long for you.

I miss talking with you like never before. It’s like you are here, but you’re never here.

See, that’s what I have discovered. That I have lived my whole life, until now, searching for you.. and whenever I do find you, I realize that I haven’t actually did. Do I push you away? Or do I have high expectations?

But here’s what I have come to realize.. That it has all been about finding you. The struggle, the pain, the longing, the love, the support; all these are just to find you. To find the real you. I now understand that friendship is all that matters.

Friends don’t leave their friends behind. Friends don’t lie. Friends understand, when their friends lie. Friends save each other. Friends come first. Friends share food. Friends do share their pains and joys together. They split it and share it. Because feelings are sometimes overwhelming to be held by one. Friends always come back after a fight. And they do fight a lot. Friends love their friends extra special when they have dark spots in their souls. Friends don’t just sit back and do nothing. Friends trust each other. Like, when a friend says “Just trust me...”, then the most dangerous places become the safest! Home is where your friends are!

I have been heavily learning this, in the past days. Just to understand that all I really need is to share the rest of my life with a friend.

Sincerely,
Your friend.