I asked myself, what's making my life on hold? What am I waiting for? And the answer was that I don't feel home, I don't feel like I'm settled down, so I can then start to live freely and get based on solid roots. Then, I figured out that no place ever feels like home, and that I almost have never felt like I'm settled down. And then, I remembered that here on earth I shall never find the place I can call my home, simply because my home is not here. And that is when I realized that I don't need to feel home or to settle down in order to start living the life I want. Yet, there is a certain level of stability that I need to pursue in order to give myself the space to live freely. And, I remembered that that stability can only be attained through Him. It was the moment I felt like I'm missing Him way too much. That I have forgotten, that I have drifted away. This has always been, and will forever be, the main reason of my misery. No matter how much I t
