Daydreams...

Dreams hurt. When you dream of things that are beyond reality. Dreams are then hurtful. Don’t tell me nothing is impossible and you can make all dreams come true. Because, well, yes nothing is impossible and all dreams can come true, but some dreams are just unrealistic to an extent that the idea of them coming true would be a dramatic shocking truth. So, no they won’t easily come true, not even hardly. They just won’t, however how happy they are. And then they leave you helpless, breathless, unable to think or move. And you keep wondering: “Why now? and What does it mean?” Because at the moment you thought you were over it, you stopped thinking about it, and that it wouldn't be a problem to you anymore, you find yourself dreaming of it, thinking of it deep inside the back of your head. The funny part is that you were so happy in your dream. The kind of happiness you think you truly deserve. Everyone was happy too. It was like something even beyond your wildest dreams.

Sometimes you just go with what your heart tells you. You just forgive everything and let go of the grudges you hold. And you begin trusting again. You believe that you deserve the best there is for you. You decide you'll open a new leaf and start a new beginning. You trust the people who ask you to trust them. You decide you'll believe them. For how can they hurt you more than what you've been through. And how can they hurt you when you have decided to believe in them, and believe in yourself first and how good you are, and most importantly believe in Allah at first and at last. So you go with your heart and love again, trust again, and feel blessed. And here's the risk you're taking. A leap of faith. Even if there will be no one to catch you. You have faith that you'll fly. And if you didn't, you'll land safely. Funny how you can make me fall out of love and then back in love with you every time. Above all, please remember, I trust you. So please be s

One: Admit you're wrong. And accept it. Two: Don't ever let someone's nonsense words drag you down. No one should have such a power over you. Three: If you want to blame anyone, go ahead. But remember that blaming anyone now won't do you any good. You are already messed up and the problem is all yours now to solve. No one will step up to solve it or even give you a helping hand. Four: Start over. Forget what you've done before. Even what mistakes you had made and start over, as if nothing ever has happened. This time focus better and just be smarter. Five: Sleep a good night sleep. Never ever give up that! ;) P.S: It's always the first step that is the hardest. Just get past it and you'll finally arrive.

Dream but don't expect your dream to come true. Work hard but remember that you might be working wrong.

I have to stop this haze I'm putting myself in and start organizing my life. I really have to stop! I hate the way I am! I ... I don't know what to say. I hate my life? I've already said that before. I hate you? Well that has to stop right now for you did nothing to be hated. I'm devastated and frustrated. I look at the reflection of me in the mirror and I hate what I see. I really do. A pale face with no emotions, maybe only a sad one. And I feel no one is ever around to think of me and of what I'm feeling inside. But then again, I wonder, why on earth do I need someone to think of me or care at all?!?! I have just been reading something about emotional dependency. I believe I'm one of those who totally put their emotional welfare into the hands of other people. It doesn't matter if those people are special or not, but they have to be really close and really into me to ever effect my emotions' health. And sometimes there is just no one around. Just n

It's an attitude. And moreover, it's a choice. You know that saying that when you're a kid, you're dying to graduate from school, and you can't wait when you'll be at college where there is the life you're expecting and dreaming of. Then when you're at college, you're dying to graduate and go beyond life and into your dreams and all the real practical life experiences. Then you graduate and get a job, that you find, after awhile, that it isn't as anything you had ever dreamed of. So you're dying for another opportunity to find the life of your dreams. And another, then another ... You never settle down. Then you feel that you don't want to end up alone, that the time has come to find a stable relationship that opens the doors of happiness for you. You're dying to get married, until you do. Then you're dying to build a home and a family, a family of your own. You buy a bigger house, you find a better job, you hold the responsibili

Dear future husband, You’re the one who knows me best, or so I believe. You’re the one who knows my life, how it was, and how I’d like it to be. You’re the one who knows my conditions and situations. You know what I've been through, what I've missed in my life, and what have hurt me the most. You know it all.  So, now, I deliver you the responsibility of making it all up for me. Everything I've missed in my life, I want you to be it, and make it happen for me. I’m looking highly up at you. And I know, with every piece of my heart, that you will never let me down. You’ll be my father, before you are my husband. You’ll be my brother, before you are my lover. And you’ll be my everything. I depend on you. And I’ll depend more. For I’ll give you my all. And you know how ready I am to do so. And I’m not afraid. I don’t worry at all. Because I trust you. And before I trust you, I trust God. Because I've prayed to God, to make you the person I want you to be. So no, I’

There's just nothing to talk about. Nothing at all! That's how I get to feel sometimes.Because I think there's only one truth about this whole life. And it's the only thing that's worth talking about and even thinking about. So let's focus on this only truth. Let's face it. Let's let it control our lives and it becomes our whole life, our life's main purpose. So here you are, doing your best to focus and think of what only really matters. And it's not as hard as it may seem. You actually manage to focus, maybe only when you're really too tired of life, for a couple of minutes, and sometimes even for a whole complete hour. But then you get bored. You want to drink something, eat something, watch TV, or you maybe just want to sleep. And b-ooo-h! You're back to the life you've been living. You're back to the misery- or the joy!! Well no, life isn't as bad as I may sound, but it isn't as good as it felt in that last hour. Bec