Daydreams...

Dear old friend, I have no idea how I had a dream of you last night, but ever since I woke up this morning, I couldn't let go of your picture in my mind. I miss you, dear friend. I miss you badly. I wonder if you miss me too. I wonder why you have abandoned our friendship. I wonder if you too dream of me every once and awhile. How come does my mind still remember you, specially in the midst of such emotionally exhausting days? I have this belief in dreams that they come right in the time we need them the most. Is my dream a sign of anything at all? Or is it just a game my mind decided to play randomly. I wish you could only know how much I miss you, how much I love you, though all the heartache you have caused me. I just want my friend back. Can I?! The friend who misses you.

When words get stuck in your throat and never attempt to get out of your heart. When emotions are too deep and complicated that they can’t be expressed, but only felt. When fear becomes the theme of your life. When you hold your own problems with your own hands but never manage to throw them away. When you choose to surrender, though you understand it very well that it really hurts to think it over. When life passes by you and you don’t get to catch it. When you just wish life stops here so you don’t live longer and make more mistakes. When you hold on to the moment so hard and wish it never leaves because you just can’t imagine how could it possibly be otherwise. Only then, just give it all up. Give it up to Allah, the owner of life and death.