Daydreams...

Dear friend, I long for you. I miss talking with you like never before. It’s like you are here, but you’re never here. See, that’s what I have discovered. That I have lived my whole life, until now, searching for you.. and whenever I do find you, I realize that I haven’t actually did. Do I push you away? Or do I have high expectations? But here’s what I have come to realize.. That it has all been about finding you. The struggle, the pain, the longing, the love, the support; all these are just to find you. To find the real you. I now understand that friendship is all that matters. Friends don’t leave their friends behind. Friends don’t lie. Friends understand, when their friends lie. Friends save each other. Friends come first. Friends share food. Friends do share their pains and joys together. They split it and share it. Because feelings are sometimes overwhelming to be held by one. Friends always come back after a fight. And they do fig...

I want to write about you. Only you. Like.. you are the only reason why I want to write. But I don’t know you. I mean, I do.. but, then I don’t. I don’t really know who you really are, yet, somehow I do know who you truly are. It’s getting me crazy. I want to run away as far as I can, but I can’t. I am so attached that I don’t understand. Like, there is this invisible thread that is tying us together. You hold it tight when I let go, and I hold it when you let it go. I see yo u. I even see through you. And I know you see through me as well. I love how teary your eyes get when you are about to say something that is just so true. And I love how excited you sound when you get a new idea, which is not totally new, you know! Even when you get arrogant and egoistic, when you fight back and prove where you stand. I love how fragile you are. And it’s killing me. This is poisonous. I keep thinking that I don’t deserve you. That I would harm you. So I let you harm me instead! I don’t rea...