Daydreams...

From where shall I start?! Three years ago, or maybe more, I have been keeping a secret journal where I used to lay down all my feelings and fantasies about a love that I was not able to admit. Back then, I knew these feelings were not right, and it was not a true love, and that is why I couldn't admit it. Randomly finding this journal, and reading it today, made me discover how naive I was for believing in my feelings. But then again, who am I to judge my former feelings. I mean, this is not right; feelings are supposed to be always right. Actually, they do not fall in the categorization as right or wrong. They are just feelings that come to us and we must accept them as they are. We should not judge our own feelings to say they are right or not. We should accept them, and let them be felt as is. So, maybe I was right about everything I have felt back then, because up till this moment I still fall for the same things, and the same feelings. What actually matter are the decisions ...

There's just nothing to talk about. Nothing at all! That's how I get to feel sometimes.Because I think there's only one truth about this whole life. And it's the only thing that's worth talking about and even thinking about. So let's focus on this only truth. Let's face it. Let's let it control our lives and it becomes our whole life, our life's main purpose. So here you are, doing your best to focus and think of what only really matters. And it's not as hard as it may seem. You actually manage to focus, maybe only when you're really too tired of life, for a couple of minutes, and sometimes even for a whole complete hour. But then you get bored. You want to drink something, eat something, watch TV, or you maybe just want to sleep. And b-ooo-h! You're back to the life you've been living. You're back to the misery- or the joy!! Well no, life isn't as bad as I may sound, but it isn't as good as it felt in that last hour. Bec...