Daydreams...

You inspired me when I lost all my inspirations. You gave me hope when I needed it the most. You made me see a possibility of something I thought it couldn't be. And for that I'm grateful. I want to discover you more, let you in, and enjoy being with you. I want to become your hope, your inspiration, and your comfort zone. You say I'm sweet, you say my calls make you happy, you say sorry when I don't expect it, and then you stop trying. Do you really mean it? Do you get that it even makes me happier, and more grateful? Is it possible that I get such intense feelings over a couple of days? Or is it my mind just playing games with me? Are you here?

That is the only time when writing makes sense. Writing well means writing to make the reading easier, more enjoyable, and more relieving. That, we know! But when writing takes the readers' troubles away; when writing goes beyond the meanings behind the words written, and have a whole new higher value, like to relief pain, create hope, inspire, or transform. That's the writing I want to write. That's the writing I dream of. That's the writing I hope I'm offering to the world.

The Hugging Judge* ‘Don't bug me! Hug me!’ - Bumper Sticker Lee Shapiro is a retired judge. He is also one of the most genuinely loving people we know. At one point in his career, Lee realized that love is the greatest power there is. As a result, Lee became a hugger. He began offering everybody a hug. His colleagues dubbed him "the hugging judge" (as opposed to the hanging judge, we suppose). The bumper sticker on his car reads, "Don't bug me! Hug me!" About six years ago Lee created what he calls his Hugger Kit. On the outside it reads "A heart for a hug." The inside contains thirty little red embroidered hearts with stickums on the back. Lee will take out his Hugger Kit, go around to people and offer them a little red heart in exchange for a hug. Lee has become so well known for this that he is often invited to keynote conferences and conventions, where he shares his message of unconditional love. At a conference in San Francisco, the local ne...

There are a lot more in life than the box we're limiting ourselves to it. There are a lot more to see, to taste, and to experience. Life isn't just the room you're locked inside. And you have no idea how much opportunities you're missing. So here you have the choice; either you watch life through the glass of your room as it passes you by or you step outside and actually live your life as wild as your dreams and imaginations can take you. And as I get to see the world outside of me, I get amazed by how beautiful it is. How beautiful people or things could actually be. I am amazed. And now that I know that my wild dreams can easily come true, I won't give up and I won't ever accept anything less than that, anything that is less than my worth and my standards. Even if you're the last man on earth, I'd still say No.

And what hurts me the most is that I'll have to start all over again from the beginning. Like all the past years never existed. Maybe losing my memory would help. At least I wouldn't be knowing that I have previously tried and failed. All I need is to find Hope again. To live and anticipate for something, something specific and beautiful, that will happen soon. فصبر جميل ... الحمد لله رب العالمين

There are fickle visions of a life in my mind. It might be a past life or a future one; I can't tell. They could just be memories. Memories I can't completely remember. Maybe memories of a life I only dreamed of long ago. A life I haven't yet lived. And they may be premonitions of a coming life. A life I'm destined to live someday. Or just a life I can only dream of living. A life I can never afford thinking about. I can't be sure what kind of life it is. I can't even describe it. All I know about these visions is that they leave my heart with some kind of warmth, and my mind with some content. It's all momentary, I know. But they worth to be noticed and thought of. I couldn't figure what is this that I have. It fills me with the hope of a much happier tomorrow. And sometimes with regret that I wouldn't be able to relive such a life, and with the worry that maybe this life would never be lived, by me. There's another life inside of me. And till ...

Life is beautiful, indeed! Life has a lot of beautiful things out there waiting for me to enjoy. It was me, I was the one who wasn't getting the beauty of life and spending my life hiding under my bed. Then I figured out why I'm hiding, it's because I making myself believe that I have no idea how I shall enjoy the life I wish to enjoy. And this is a lesson I can pass to you, never make yourself believe things that aren't true! Don't assume before you learn very well if your assumption has a huge possibility of being right or not. However, I must admit I have some clues and I'm getting the rest soon.  Everyday is a day to remember, to learn, to enjoy, to live and so to dream...  So, yes, everyday deserves to be written. But it's the will to write that matters, because sometimes you may have a lot of things to talk about, yet you don't want to talk, and sometimes you have nothing at all to say, but you do manage to say something just because you...

It was strange, to me, that feeling I felt the minute I saw your face. It was like an unexpected reaction coming out of me, I was taken by the surprise that it can happen, and that easily. And then another one, very odd feeling, very relieving and breath taking feeling, the first time I saw your smile and your laugh. Then this one, the one that I can't believe how I could feel it, the one that proves to me that true and real love has a totally different and sweeter taste when it comes in its right moment, that true love is so much worth the wait, even if I'll wait forever. But the strangest of them all was that feeling I had, the next day, where I could sense you anywhere I went to, or whenever my phone rang! And I've no idea what does this all mean? Is it just a thrill of something new? Is it a soul finding its peace somewhere near? Or is it just a sign that there's something much better left for me, than what I thought I can just settle for? Or am I that eas...

I came to realize that you are not the person who I thought you were. I remember the day I announced you as a dear and best friend. And I remember you saying how glad you are. But then, you never treated me that way. Maybe once or twice, just because it was easy at that time to do so, just because you too needed a friend. But no, you never were a friend to me, and I don't believe you'd ever be. I'm not disappointed or anything. I just keep saying this out loud to myself to accept the fact that not everything I would wish for, I would get. 

Sometimes I really wish I could escape the real world, stay stuck in a dream or a movie I love to watch. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't wake up from my sleep or that this moment right now never ends. Sometimes it's really hard and I'm too tired to face my life, so I back down and hide for a while. Sometimes I'm even too lazy to sleep and get ready for a better tomorrow and have a fresh start! Is it a fear of the future? Maybe. But I move on anyway, that's life, I'm stuck in my reality and I have to deal with it. And all that talk about you have to change your reality if you don't like it, well I'm trying really hard to fight myself and how it dwells me into never changing my life. And here's something, I came now to tell that to you, because I want to change, because I have to! At least all I can do is to try and think about it over and over till I figure it out! Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.2

Yesterday is not coming back, however bad or good, it ends at the moment we fall asleep. And tomorrow is a new day to come, that's a fact you can't run away from. By new I mean that it's totally unpredictable, even if you can do some guessing, you can never be sure, never! But today is your day, the only day you have a full control of. Today starts the minute you wake up; and then you have a choice to make at the minute you open up your eyes and get fully conscious. It's a decision whether you'll gladly accept today, the day that's given to you to be in full control of it, or you'd throw it away. It's your choice. Today I've chosen to do, get out and just go get what I want! Today was like a dream coming true, what happened in every minute of the day and how I felt was just indescribable. Hope spoke to me today, it whispered into my ears and said that it's looking upon me. Then some very true friendship came along to say that it exists really ...

Well, no one is perfect, you know. And I'm striving to be perfect, I mean good at least, or maybe I can hit it and be great one day. But I strive and work hard for it, I really do, this is one thing you should know and keep in mind. So don't try to judge me or think how I can be.        And don't make it hard for me to speak and tell what's in my heart. And be a friend who listens, shares and then guides.  Be the picture I'm trying to draw for you in my mind. Because sometimes I really need a friend, a friend who is me when a friend is needed. And I keep looping around and settling to the fact that no friend is good for me but Me. In the end, May Allah guide "Me" to the right path. Because in the end no one will guide me except Allah...