Daydreams...

I have always hated dreams. Simply because they are true! Think about it; dreams always tend to face you, either with your deepest fears, or your deepest desires. Both ways, you will get hurt, because you wouldn't like to face your fears that you can't change, or your desires that you can't fulfill. Looking from the other side, dreams tell you the truth about who you are, and who you want to be. So, dreams help you discover yourself, which I think is an advantage. Anyhow, change is hard, and facing reality is even harder. That is why I'm not a fan of dreams, and I wish I could never dream, because they, literally, ruin my reality!

It happens to a lot of people, different people. Denial. They say grief has many faces, one of them is denial. You may spend a whole day hiding behind a mask of happiness, like you can take in as much as the world might give you, like you can do everything that can be done in this whole world. But, then something happens to break you. It may be something too strong and deep that it has the ability to awaken the rage that is within you. Or it may be a pushy person pushing you to speak and talk, and keeps reminding you of how sad you actually should be. It usually comes at the end of the day, the breaking down, after you get deeply tired, tired of holding that mask on your face, tired of how hard you have worked to prove that you can take in the cruel world you may be living in, tired of draining your physical and emotional energy away of you, and tired of that pushy person beside you begging you to talk and speak. Then when you do, speak up and say what's truly on your mind and i...