Daydreams...

Since it’s my only way to let it go, my only way to breathe, I’ll have to write it down, for you. So, be prepared to know one of my deepest secrets, which, I believe, is your deepest secret too. We are all one, aren’t we?! I wish for someone, a life companion, and a true friend. Someone who’s here beside me whenever I’m in need or having a hard time accepting life. Someone who will surprise me every now and then, and gives me random visits just because that would make us both happy. Someone who I could give all of my caring and love to. Someone who listens to me, cries for me, and secretly prays for me. I know I might already be blessed with that person in my life, but I’m not yet aware. That would be my mistake; please pray for me. I also know that maybe Allah hasn't granted me that person yet because I don’t deserve being the center of someone else’s life. Or maybe Allah is telling me that such a person doesn't exist in this life. Or I’m just being taught again and again tha...

A whole life with all its ups and downs, glories and tragedies,victories and losses, drawbacks and perfections, could end in a second. An unexpected second, and even in fractions of that second. You won't know, you won't feel it and you won't have the chance to save yourself. So does it really matter how sad or how happy you feel right now? Does that job you're seeking or this girl, or man, you're longing for matter? Is life really worth all this worries and thinking? Does it?!?!

It's an attitude. And moreover, it's a choice. You know that saying that when you're a kid, you're dying to graduate from school, and you can't wait when you'll be at college where there is the life you're expecting and dreaming of. Then when you're at college, you're dying to graduate and go beyond life and into your dreams and all the real practical life experiences. Then you graduate and get a job, that you find, after awhile, that it isn't as anything you had ever dreamed of. So you're dying for another opportunity to find the life of your dreams. And another, then another ... You never settle down. Then you feel that you don't want to end up alone, that the time has come to find a stable relationship that opens the doors of happiness for you. You're dying to get married, until you do. Then you're dying to build a home and a family, a family of your own. You buy a bigger house, you find a better job, you hold the responsibili...

I don’t think I want to continue on living! Yet, I'm not ready to die. Like I’m stuck in between life and death. Maybe this is a good start, for me, to seriously consider getting ready to die. Yes, I believe, it’s the only reason that makes sense why I should keep on living.  I should start living and get ready to die! .اللهم أحيني ما كانت الحياة خيرا لي وتوفني إذا كانت الوفاة خيرا لي .اللهم توفني و أنت راض عني